Who Is That Person?
I can hardly believe that May was the very last time I posted anything to this blog. So much has happened to me since that time--both the divine and the disastrous. I wish that I was more open because my life would most certainly make for interesting reading. If I wrote about all that goes on I'm sure I would have a huge following of readers. It has all the makings of a novel--triumphs and failures, money and men, passion, rivalry... Unfortunately, I'm rather private and therefore not inclined to share those details. Before I started my blog, I read quite a bit about what makes a good one. Aside from the obvious of not writing for weeks at a time, the advice always seemed to include just be yourself. "To thine ownself be true." The problem is that sometimes I don't know exactly who I am. I think we probably all have several personas--who we think we should be, who we are for others, who we really are, etc. Throughout my life I've had a tremendous struggle with the collective selves. But I still have hope that in the end, my best self will win. I'm rooting for her anyway. In the battle for self, I'm learning to taste pain with the same gusto as joy, for within that pain I have discovered, is a joyous lesson. I'll let you know when I graduate.